a process too complicated to explain: getting to know my apartment again.

i have had this thought that has been developing for a while now but i don't know how to say it out loud yet. i know it's a truth that i hold dear. i know what it is when i experince it. i know what it feels like. i know when im around people who have the same ideal of this thought - who believe in this thought and strive for it. but i can't put it into words yet.

it has to do with truth. genuineness. peacefulness. growth. beauty. strength. community.

i long for a slower life but i don't allow myself to have one. tonight is a vary rare night of being home. i filled it with really good music. some reading time. organizing photos of late. major cuddling with emerson. and a little raw dinner with not so raw wine to follow (wink)

at one point i was in a middle of a dance from the kitchen to my bedroom and i had to just say out loud that "i am so happy to be home right now."

christmas break is coming so soon and i just can't wait. i want to say i have plans for something over the break but honestly i don't want to put anything on my plate and just see what life brings.

school this week is great. today we spent most of the day finishing the books the kids are writing and working on our dance for christmas assembly. dancing and writing - who can argue with that.

here are some things i love greatly that i have just found while i was organizing.

directions to one of my most favorite people.