"sometimes i thank god for unanswered prayers

remember when you're talking to the man upstairs

that just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care

some of god's greatest gifts are unswered prayers."

it would seem like country music does have it all figured out after all.

i like the fact that even though my grandma has no idea who it is when she answers the phone she says "merry christmas" as soon as she picks up. and even though she lost my grandpa a little over a year ago she is not to sad sitting alone in her house right now and she really wants to make sure that we are all doing alright and that we are happy. i learn from her - from her strength and love.

i like the fact that while im sitting here typing i can hear sarah humming miles to sleep down the hall.

i like the fact that a christmas with not so many presents really does turn out to be the best christmas of all..

merry christmas guys!

...we are blessed.

use your voice. it seems simple but in reality it's complex. we use our voices to teach the young and to whisper our darkest fears and sweetest dreams. our voices give form, shape and vision to our memories, cultures and ideas. there is no division, no better or worse, no right or wrong in our voices. they are our most valuable and powerful assests.

my cell phone broke and the one i was using to replace it isn't work out. i feel like have not talked to so many of you and i am so sorry. i can't be reached by cell phone anymore and my house line is the only way to reach me. im sorry for all the phone calls that i have not returned and how frustating it is - trust me it's on this end too. renee - i have been listening to david gray's new one all morning and thinking of you -oh boy is he good. jill - i have been calling lgyc but you are a busy girly girl. amy - two text messages that all we have had and i think of you every time i walk into starbucks. paul - im a jerk and we never got together - how about you just come by for fun no car trips. ellen - we got the teen camp cd - i would like to see my rock star friend....possible? mellissa - quit sleeping and get over here. k -love...carrera christmas 2005 was a success. every night i get an itching for felicity...hmm. chadwick im glad that we got to watch one bears game together even if i did get major stomach grossness from toots. AND where the heck is justin. hannah am i ever going to see you? i missed you all so much even those i didn't mention and hopefully will be able to see you.

home for christmas. i got home last night and walked in the door and smelled fire in the fire place and pumpkin bread and knew that i was home. funny how there is a smell that will bring you to tears and let you know that your safe. first snow day of fun...

my last morning here. the new teacheres are going to have a banana pancake breakfast and then there is going to be 4 trips back and forth to the airport...

and then at 10:31 p.m- HOME!!

they say it's your birthday... joanna marie jardine. most consider this girl the most attractive jardine and i don't think that they are wrong. my gift this summer was that i was able to get the spend time you joanna and for the first time really get to know you. this summer you became my friend - not just a sister. and you are a pretty good friend to have. i love you and i can't wait to get to spend more time with you in just...5 days. happy birthday girl.

can't you see that it's just raining - ain't no need to go outside.

it has been raining for 12 hours straight now...i keep thinking that if i were at home this would be snow falling.

colby mecher - though he was far from home this summer he was still close to my heart (does that make up for it colby?) and i do believe this is one of my all time favorite memories from camp... shane cash is back on the island hopetown girls - riding in the box car races and everything - we snuck a picture just for you ladies who would appreciate it... and to close up this little web entry - home is near. brooke said that is was 20 degrees yesterday...whoa.