justin sent me some songs off the TC cd that is coming out. oh man they are good. it got me thinking of this summer. realizing how special it really was. thanks for making it so

i once read a book that said that brokenness is life's nature: that lives and hearts get broken - those of people we love, those of people that we will never meet. it said that this world sometimes feels like a waiting room of the emergency ward and that we who are more or less ok for now need to take the tenderness possible care of the more wounded people in the waiting room, until the healer comes.

i keep coming back to this thought. maybe it's the fact that this weekend i was surrounded by people that were in complete love but at the same time others who were in complete pain. that both these extremes were in the same room at the same time dealing with completely different things. maybe it's the fact that my days are spent with 20 seven year olds that constantly need shoes tied, nose's wiped, problems solved, strictness but hugs all in one moment. or that i get to spend most morning drinking tea and watching the beauty of the sunrise but then walk out of my house and see the complete ugliness in of the world as i am riding to school. but it has become more and more obvious how much this world needs love. and how it is our job to pass that love on. in love there is power. love someone for who they are - love with understanding and watch the change that comes. the change fussing at them or ignoring them would never bring.

i have been changed because of love and i think that it's our job to pass on the power of love to others - give others a glimpse of christ.

just when i thought that i was not going to make it i got to see the fall. and even better than city fall i got to be in the middle of the canadian country on farmland seeing the fall. i realized that i feel most comfortable and myself in a sweatshirt, vest and pair of gloves - this does not fit with my lifestyle at this point but it gave me a little hope of what is to come.

i went for beth's wedding and it was a weekend filled with cool air - lots of warm coffee - my favorite friends - country living - and lots of love.



i got to vicariously live out my dream of getting married and reception in a barn

we rocked it in a limo


and not only got to hang out with great old friends


but made great new canadian friends (this is your little shout out april)


and after a night of night fun the festivities began






with a miss of the bouquet the night was over


and at sunrise


and tim hortons in hand


i had to say goodbye to my dearests


it got me itching to get home - one month.

it is grace margaret's 18th birthday. my sister is amazing. she is six years younger than me but teaches me about love and gentleness and forgiveness every time i interact with her. she has one of the biggest hearts that i know and i wish that i had half the compassion that she possesses. lindsey lohan has nothing on this girl who i love so much. i am blessed by her.

welp i did it. it was amazing. i am addicted and can't wait until the next one. here are some highlights. we left school and 10 minutes later jumped right on a plane that our friends had charted. the plane might have been small but we had a professional as a pilot and they supplied us with flotation devices so on our way we went we packed ourselves in a car - 5 people, 10 bags of luggage, 20 wheels and 5 bikes - all in a ford taurus race day came and we got all set up 5 of us from abaco after the race we helped with the kids iron man and then we drove around to look at the damage from wilma we went to the awards ceremony at night - rhonda took first place in our age range and dale took first place overall - it was a proud night for abaco. and on our way home we went to green beans that had been left in the pot since halloween - so gross...but very picture worthy.