i have entered a long distance relationship. today i keep thinking of that movie about a boy. i guess on one of the occasions of watching it i took to hear how he explained time in a day and placed it in the deeps of my memory so that it could pop up today.
"I find the key is to think of a day as units of time, each unit consisting of no more than thirty minutes. Full hours can be a little bit intimidating and most activities take about half an hour. Taking a bath: one unit, watching countdown: one unit, web-based research: two units, exercising: three units, having my hair carefully disheveled: four units. It's amazing how the day fills up."
i have been doing this lately. trying to fill up my days. finding units to distract me to the fact that my best friend is no longer by my side.
i want to be good at this. i think that for the past two days i have failed at being good at this.
my emotions work in this funny way where they hide and hide so well until they explode all over the ones i care most about. i know that it is 2011 and it seems that the theme of all things weather in 2011 is to explode all over whatever is near but i would prefer to harness these crazy emotions and sail on steady streams.
so i'm back to writing. this may involve just saying that to cope with a long distance relationship i am going to make my days full of half hour units until my day is so full that my day isn't so lonely. hopefully these writings will change to how my days are filled with beauty and i get extra beauty because i have a companion on the other side of the country sharing his days that are filled with beauty. it will be like having double duty beauty days.
